Friday, February 27, 2009

Well, I'm officially sick of life

1. I think I try too hard. Especially with things I know that aren't going to change. For example: I have a friend, who's a great student, she's smart, gets her work done, etc., but she misses a lot of school, for various reasons. Like, if she's sick, obviously, but then there'll be times where she's said she has to run errands, take her dog somewhere, or something else. I don't know, I'm not -mad- but it's like, we don't talk about the issue because she gets mad that I'm being "too controlling" or I shouldn't worry about it. And I know I shouldn't worry about it, but like, I don't know, I guess it just feels like I'm worrying about something that's out of my control. But yeah.

2. Bryce and I are alright. We've been arguing a lot lately, and it's been mostly all my fault, and things I've brought up. It's like, I try -so- hard to get him to talk to me about his feelings, and I know that that's hard for a lot of guys, and he's pretty good about it, but like, it's getting him started, that's slightly frustrating. Like, if something's bothering him, he won't say it directly, he'll just say, "Oh, nothing", even though I know something is. And he'll deny it like crazy, and than that night, or the next day, he'll be the same way, and then he'll say, "Well, earlier tonight", or "Well, yesterday", or something. I don't know. It's not an anger thing, it's just a communications thing. Ya know? I don't know. It's weird. I'm so used to having the feeling of having a boyfriend, and I'm just so afraid to lose it. I mean, there's more than that to lose, obviously, not just the attachment feeling, but yeah.

3. Wendy and I have so much fun together; I just realized that today. I mean, Kelsey and I have fun, she and Kelsey have fun, and Wendy and I have fun. And we all have fun together, it's just an ackward fun. Like, we all have our lil' groups of two (previously mentioned), and so w/in those, we'll have inside jokes. So when we're all together, we're just kind of like, "Wait, who was I with when that happened?!". Ya know? But yeah....I don't know, I just love being around her, (Wendy), because she's so fun. We can talk about a ton of stuff, and it's like, we both have boyfriends and we're both having issues with them (Err....), and so we can talk about it. I mean, we can talk about it with Kelsey too, but Wendy knows specifically, ya know? [[Don't worry, Kel-C! I love you! Huggies!]]. But yeah.

Well, I have homework to do. I have to finish a speech analysis, and an English thing, which I can do later. But I want to take a shower, straighten my hair, and such, and do this before 10! So, I better go. I'll write more tomorrow.

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